Peace and love Beloveds. ✨
This month has been a whirlwind of highs and lows, and as you probably know, when life gets chaotic, I tend to retreat and regroup. No matter how hard I try to stay consistent, that sense of stability often feels just out of reach. I've come to realize it stems from a lack of clear direction. Lately, I’ve felt lost—torn between the inner knowing that I’m destined for more and the weight of unresolved traumas that cling to me. My dreams have vividly reflected this internal struggle, and they’ve been anything but comforting. There’s a deeper calling I feel, but I’m uncertain whose voice it is when I’m caught between nostalgia and ambition. I used to feel a sense of urgency to finish what I started, followed by satisfaction when I accomplished it. Now, everything feels devoid of purpose. A part of me feels abandoned, left out in the cold, and I’m not even sure I want to reclaim that part of myself.
Opening up has always been a challenge for me. That’s why I thought blogging, podcasting, or even returning to social media might help me express myself. But the motivation to continue faded quickly. The more I observe the chaos of the outside world, the more I want to retreat and protect the peace I’ve built. And yet, one part of me always reminds me that this solitude, while healing, can also be isolating.
Solitude has its gifts—recharging, stillness, and the clarity to hear your intuition and inner guidance. But if you spend too long in that space, reentering the world can feel overwhelming, frustrating, and even pointless. Who am I kidding? As a Pisces, I already find myself teetering on this edge, lol. I’ve become so cautious about where I place my energy, and as I grow, that caution has extended into every corner of my life. It’s a constant tug-of-war between staying in the background and stepping into the spotlight. As I type this, I realize there's still shadow work to be done—a realization that leaves me feeling both conflicted and comforted. Diving deep into self-reflection can feel like a roller coaster ride. Perhaps it’s just the energy of the day. With the Moon and a cluster of retrogrades in play, it’s hard not to feel like everything is amplified. Not that I’m blaming planetary shifts for how I feel—just acknowledging that they play their part in the energy I’m experiencing.
"What you embody is what you attract." It’s a phrase I’ve heard countless times and lived by in various ways. But no one really tells you how to shift your energy when you’re feeling low, overwhelmed, or consumed by guilt and shame. Yes, self-help books, meditation, crystals, and sound bowls can aid in raising your vibration. But where do you find the motivation to even start? What sparks the desire to get back on track? Spiritual cleanses, showers, journaling, or even video journaling can help, but sometimes the best thing you can do is simply sit with your emotions. Acknowledge them, identify them, and trace them to their roots. Writing this, even though it’s not my usual upbeat post, has lifted some of the heaviness off my chest. Worrying endlessly about what’s to come only breeds anxiety, while dissecting the past leads to regret. Neither serves me, because I can't control what hasn’t happened or change what already has.
The best course of action is to focus on the practices that truly nurture and uplift me. Let go of the things that don’t ignite joy or passion. Distance myself from those who fail to understand the weight of my silence—because miscommunication is bound to happen when you’re not speaking the same language. Gratitude is my anchor. No matter how hard life feels, I remind myself to be grateful. Things could always be worse. Gratitude, after all, is an extension of faith—a belief that the storm won’t last forever. Yes, you might be drenched to the bone right now, but the skies will eventually clear.
I don’t see myself as a healer because I’ve healed others. I know I’m a healer because I’ve healed myself—countless times. I’ve picked up the shattered pieces of my life, learned to trust again, and kept my heart open despite the pain. Things feel foggy right now, but that’s okay. It just means I need to pause, reflect, and refocus to reach the other side. I recently pulled some cards, and the energy check-in was just as I expected. My intuition has strengthened, even during this period of unrest. The more I allow myself to feel the emotions I’ve avoided for so long, the more I’m rewarded with clarity and growth. This uncomfortable space I’m in is here to shape me, to push me toward my greatness. It’s not easy to be patient in the midst of discomfort, but I know the outcome will be worth it. These moments teach me to navigate challenges in healthier, more resilient ways. Whether I choose to sit in stagnation or channel my energy into something productive, the choice is mine—and that’s empowering;
Until next time, know that I am wishing you wellness, joy, and peace. May the Creator continue to correct, direct, and protect you eternal.
Another day, Another way.💋
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