Metamorphosis

Peace and Divine Blissings, Beloved Beings!🌕 Happy Scorpio Full moon!

It’s been a while since I’ve had the opportunity to sit and put my thoughts into words. It’s not that I lack ideas—they’re always present—but timing often feels elusive amidst the many tasks that require attention. When I first envisioned this journey, I almost didn’t begin, held back by fears that seemed to appear out of nowhere. Questions like, “Can I stay consistent? Do I have the capacity to take this on? Will it succeed, and if it doesn’t, how will I cope?” plagued my mind. There were more doubts, but you get the idea. Fast forward to now—nearly four months since relaunching my website—and I find myself wrestling with feelings of falling short, whether in sharing my work or posting new content consistently. Yet, there’s an inner voice, persistent and unyielding, urging me not to give up. It feels as though a higher version of myself is determined to make this journey worthwhile.

As part of my journey, I’ve been on a social media break since May 1, 2025. In the past, I would simply vanish from my platforms and reappear as though nothing had happened. This time, however, I chose to handle it differently. I realized my pages had become a source of inspiration for those who engage with them, and I didn’t want to let anyone down. So, I took responsibility and announced my hiatus. While I didn’t feel the need to overexplain, I understood the importance of letting my community know—a small gesture to show respect for the connection we’ve built. This break couldn’t have come at a better time. In the first week, I caught myself instinctively opening apps, almost ready to start doom-scrolling. Each time, I stopped myself, mindful of the habit I was trying to break. I’m sure many of you know that trap all too well. Thankfully, this fast has been exactly what I needed.

Doom-scrolling had been stifling my creativity and stealing my motivation. Combined with the challenges of maintaining mental health, it created a cycle that left me feeling stuck and unproductive. Working all day only to spend my evenings scrolling aimlessly wasn’t aligned with the vision I had for myself. I could feel my passion slipping away, and with it came the fear of backsliding into patterns I thought I had left behind. It’s a humbling experience to step outside your life and observe yourself with honesty, realizing how often we are the architects of our own struggles. The blame game offers little solace—it certainly doesn’t help you grow.

Taking that step back was essential. I needed to get clear on what I hoped to gain from this experience and, just as importantly, what I wanted to give. Was I maintaining this connection to nourish myself, or was it truly for others? What message was I trying to share? Social media is a complex space—without direction, it’s easy to feel lost. Yet, when approached with purpose, it can be a powerful tool to reach others who are searching, just as I am. Deep down, I know there’s a community I’m meant to connect with. That inner knowing keeps me moving forward, reminding me not to give up, even when consistency feels elusive. Some days, I feel like I’ve figured out the rhythm; other days, I’m unsure of where to begin. But through it all, I’m learning to extend grace to myself as I work toward a vision that’s still unfolding. I see changes in myself, and for that, I’m deeply grateful. I no longer berate myself for missteps or feel frustrated when reality doesn’t align with my expectations. Instead, I honor the journey and trust the path, pausing when necessary to protect my peace of mind.

This process has brought a sense of flow, and I can feel a breakthrough on the horizon. One ritual that inspired me this spring was observing the life cycle of butterflies—a powerful metaphor for transformation. We watched them evolve from tiny larvae to plump caterpillars navigating their confined spaces, spinning silk, and building cocoons. Some faced challenges along the way, yet they emerged as new beings, ready to spread their wings once conditions were right. The experience was profound, sparking deep questions and endless wonder, especially for my little ones. Even now, my youngest is still talking about it, months after we released them. This journey revealed so much about change—how it demands patience, perseverance, and trust in the process. It reminded me that every part of the metamorphosis, from struggle to emergence, holds valuable lessons.

Change is a constant in life. Sometimes it feels like it’s tearing you apart, and other times it’s so seamless you hardly notice. In either case, something must be let go to make space for something greater. Change can bring grief, joy, or a mix of both, but it always leaves its mark. It’s okay to feel the full spectrum of emotions that come with change—it’s part of the process. There are days when the weight of transformation feels overwhelming, and I want to retreat. But somehow, I keep moving forward, guided by the prayers of my ancestors, spirits, and the Creator. Not every change leaves you soaring like a butterfly with dry wings. Sometimes, you emerge uncertain, still needing time to gather strength. Yet even then, you can’t unlearn or unknow what transformation has awakened within you. Change shifts your perspective, making it impossible to return to what once was. And while that can mean leaving cherished parts of your past behind, it also brings growth and renewal.

As I navigate these changes, I find myself with fewer questions and more inner-standing. Each lesson offers clarity and enlightenment, reminding me to stay present and honor what’s unfolding in my life. I know I’ve grown because I no longer approach challenges with a limited mindset. I’ve learned to embrace both an open mind and an open heart, welcoming the new with grace. This, to me, is the most rewarding part of transformation.

If you reflect on a significant change in your life, how has it shaped you? Would you alter the experience, or do you see its value as it is? What has transformation brought into your life, and is there an area where you’re yearning for a metamorphosis? How might you initiate that change? These are just a few journal prompts I felt called to share. Remember, perspective is everything—not just in transformation, but in life itself. Until we meet again, may the Creator continue to correct, direct, and protect you eternal. Another day, another way😉.

Signed,

Empress El ✨🕯️👁️